Maybe This Will Work

As I'm sitting here watching The Biggest Looser, I've decided I'm going to try one week focusing on eating great and then the next week focusing on exercising each day. Perhaps that can help ease me into starting new habits. I'm just grabbin' at straws here. I want to feel great like these final four do on BL, I can tell they feel great inside and out. I've felt that before a couple of times in my life and I want to want that enough to actually be able to stick with it and DO something about it! Heaven help me....Rachel HELP ME, HELP YOU!!!!!

Boo

Hated stepping a foot out of my house today, I feel like nothing is fitting AGAIN and I'm already in a freakin' 3X. I look like I'm about 7mos pregnant or something. I am totally disgusted with myself and my lack of self discipline and I feel like shiz. Poopy.
Word of warning, others may not want to be reading this blog for awhile until I can pull myself together, it's not going to be pretty.

In a Slump....AGAIN!

This is ridiculous! Seriously, I did really well for April (I had many x'd out days) and was all excited to go to Arches and get in some great hiking. Well, we did get in TONS of walking and hiking and I didn't feel like I harfed down too much. Come to find out, I gained like 2 or 3 pounds from the dangful blasted trip!!! So I guess that's why I've given up this week. I have felt pretty yucky all week (upset stomach) and extremely tired/fatigued. I don't know what's up. I'm hoping to get started again this next week, if not then the following week. We have a pretty crazy week ahead of us, with dance and Josh's birthday and preschool programs and such.
Anyhoof....that's the shpeel....I'm feeling very crappy and disappointed in myself, even disgusted too! Those mirrors and camera pictures are AWFUL, I'm sorry for everyone who has to look at me like this, I cringe each time I see the mirror....UGH!
Sorry, this sounds so pathetic, but like I said, I'm letting it all out and writing down all of my true feelings. Blah. The end.