This is really sad b/c these are all "happy" pictures. Hiking with my sister, reunited with Pouncer and paddling around with the kids. I'm getting tired of only seeing the failure with my self control and self motivation, every time I see myself in a picture lately. I cringe each time, and want to make sure that nobody sees it. WHY IS THAT NOT ENOUGH TO COMPEL ME TO FIX IT?!?!
I honestly need calorie/carb rehab, I don't see how else this is going to happen for me. It's hopeless. "what a world...what a world"
P.S. I'm considering making this blog just a private blog for myself, seeing as how I'm just wallowing in self pity and disgust right now. I promise I am not saying any of this to try and get attention (believe me that is THE LAST thing I want right now), but I said I'd be brutally honest with my feelings on here and so that's what I'm doing right now. That's all.
