Sara posted this on Facebook the other day and I've been thinking about it a lot. So with this, Biggest Looser on again and just my overall feeling of crap, I believe I might be on a motivated streak. Let's PRAY it's not just a streak again. Things have got to change. "Change will only come when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change." Love that quote too. I've been thinking about something else an instructor for weight watchers told us once too, he said, "maintaining weight is hard...loosing weight is hard....choose your hard." I keep telling myself that yes loosing weight is going to be hard and take everything I've got, HOWEVER, this "hard" will be physically and mentally (to get myself to do it) and the hard part of living the way I am, is how I feel about myself. When I'm not "trying" I feel like crap inside and out, when I AM trying, I at least feel a little better about myself. I don't know if that makes sense at all, but these are all the thoughts I've been having lately.
That being said, Sara's quote got me through my work out today. Sometimes when I walk up 6000 W. I have a goal of walking all the way to 47th, I like that b/c when I turn around to come back down, I have a great view of the whole Salt Lake Valley, and by the time I get back home, I will have walked 3 miles. Now compared to my walk yesterday around Liberty Park, this view seemed more like "the lone and dreary wilderness." It is cool to see that far out, I just wish Liberty Park were closer. I absolutely LOVE the huge trees and all of the open grass areas, with water features here and there. The weather was like 71 yesterday and I believe a little higher today (note it's October 14th!) and it was such a perfect day to go to the park. It was just Soupy and me and we first fed the ducks and geese, then walked the perimeter of the park, stopping on the play ground once and then over to the seven rivers canyons feature place. I LOVE how beautiful it is there...so peaceful.
Anyhow, so far I've purposely exercised 3 times this month. Pathetic I know, but this is the first "2 days in a row" I've done in a long time. I need rehab so I know this is going to be rough, but here's to trying again!
I'm so glad you've been re-motivated. I know how hard it is to change. Keep it up. :)
ReplyDeleteHey Rachel, I haven't been on the blogs in forever, but I was just thinking about you and thought I'd read up on your progress. First of all, I think you are BEAUTIFUL!! I know that we share a lot of the same emotional struggles as well as addictions with food. I wanted to share with you what has recently helped me with dealing with my food cravings, addictions, emotional struggles, etc... I chose on Fast Sunday to be selfish and fast for myself. I fasted for Heavenly Father to help me overcome all of those strong addictions, temptations, and feelings towards food. I have been on track for 2 weeks and haven't had even one difficult moment with staying on track. I have had all of that lovely tempting food right in front of me (endless Christmas parties) and it didn't even begin to phase me. It has been absolutely AMAZING! I have also made sure to be really prepared with having the right food in the house and keeping the goodies out. This has spilled over to the way I pack the kids' lunch and the way my husband is eating. I know that the ONLY way I am doing this is because of the Lord's help. I know as long as I'm willing to try He will free me from those horrible feelings of being out of control. I've also made sure to eat just whole foods (nothing processed...with the exception of protein powder and protein bars for on the go). I know that you can do this Rachel. I know that Heavenly Father can help you just like He is me. In these past two weeks I have lost 8 1/2 pounds...but the best part is being free from the negative relationship with unhealthy foods - thanks to His guiding hand :O). MUCH LOVE, Aly
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